i know my self much better now, that is to say i actually know who i am, and for the first time i feel like i have a personality, one that dosent change with my surroundings , all i need to do now is explore my skin for the first time with my eyes open. im experiencing emotion, instead of just reproducing what i think i should feel.
i have my own opinions! im not quite sure what they are yet but i do have them and they feel liberating like lead-haevy pre-sets being removed. descovering that' freedom in my own mind is all that i have been unconciously looking for, but going about it in the completely wrong way, is freedom in its self, freedom